Why?WHY?Why did I say no? Why decline?Why did I have to panic? Why the fear?Why did I get scared? Why was I so skeptical?Why are there so many "Why?"'s?Why couldn't I say it?Why can't I tell you how I feel?Why not at that moment?Why do I have to think about all of this?I panicked, okay? I'll admit it. I was scared. Afraid.But...why?Why was I so skeptical of you words?I wish I had said "Yes."I wouldn't feel this way right now.I feel so guilty for not saying it.For telling you how I feel about you.Can I somehow change my words and have the courage and strangth to confess?I wish.Why did we become such good friends?Why do you have to be so amazing?...Why did I fall for you?Why am I so afraid? Afraid of what?Afraid of losing my friend where I've lost so many before?YES.Entirely!It. Rips. Me. Apart!!But first, tell me...What I was asked...Was it the truth?Or just a cruel joke?
Falling AwayI can't hear your screamsYou tell me to stopEverything has become numbI feel nothingI see nothingI hear nothingI am nothingWhy do you scream?It can't change my past,It won't change my mindAfter I'm goneYou will be better offJust like everyone wantsI'll leave, you all winEverything I've ever doneIt's all just a mistakeNo matter what I doOr how many times I tryIt's not good enough for you, is it?That's why I'm hereI'll make it better for youI'll make it better for everyoneI'll walk to the ledgeI'll look down and at the darknessI'm readyI'm ready to accept my fateThis is all I'm good for, isn't it?Just not existing?That's all I am.Nothing worthwhile.Nothing important.Nothing at all.The waters below me and the earthIt looks so cold and darkBut maybeIt will welcome me as I fallI take my steps forwardSlowly, painfullyExpecting everything to just vanishEveryone, problems, the worldJust me and the watersAnd is it better?Is it worth it?Is it all gone?
What Is The Truth?The Truth"Why is it hidden?"The Truth"You can just tell me."The Truth"Do you not trust me?"The Truth"Do you not love me?"The Truth"Please, just tell me."The Truth"I can help."The Truth"Do you not think.."The Truth"...that I can handle it?"The Truth"If you only just tell me,"The Truth"We can make it through."The Truth"We'll do this together."The Truth"Just you and me. Together."The Truth"We can do this."The Truth"Just trust me, okay?"~*~*~*THE LIES"I've heard them all before."